Complaining in English is still a complaining, but it makes much more sense... well being in English at least for English practice's sake.
What should I start? Somehow I'm not entirely happy about the finals.... I don't mean the marks coz they're OK but it's rather about my professional confidence, ... and everything I gonna do next. If I ever manage to get my degree.
My ability to studing lately is also far from satisfying.
And I hate missing French lessons. All 3 that I've missed were due to my thesis.
A year off? - Yes, please. - Sorry this option is not available.
I did get the idea what it is for! At last.
To make things worse I have noooo ideaa what direction I shoud take regarding myself. I'm aware of those weak points of mine ... but I'm not quite sure that I should fight them by all means. In a way they're my basis that more or less defines me and I appreciate that.
Still I'm puzzled whether is it worth to change the focus of my further study or not? ..aaaand if yes, than to what? It's not like I'm going to, but that's something one cannot help pondering over.
Just to come close enough to my dreams. The point is not to mix up my true dreams with the dreams-I-think-can-be-mine. Look out!
I admit that the world where I live and the world I'd like to live in differ pretty much, especially from that one inside my head. That's why the lack of basis to start is so upsetting.
Suddenly, it occured to me that I'm like ambitious. And damnit that's true, though I wish I had something else but that.
So, I'm in search of.... some inspiration. I feel like I'd better do my best to find one.